I am horrified of opening up to my date, I have turned into an anxious head less chicken since I let him know in between the lines that I want to be with him long term, I am afraid of scaring him away when he really gets to know my quirks, I am totally out of control when around him, he makes me tingle, he makes me laugh, he makes me feel like 16 again, I'm afraid to misinterprete anything he says or does, I am afraid to become very vulnerable again, I am afraid to disappoint him, I am afraid to be let down by him, I am afraid to turn him off by showing him how much I want him, I am tired of games, I want to be able to love him without fear